I have been running 
For quite some time now
From you
And the things that remind me of you

But itseems as if 
I have not run fast enough 
For everytime I look back
I see that you are closer than before

How long will you stay with me
Even though your real self stays far from me
Why do visit me
Time and time again 
In my dreams 
And in my waking thoughts

What is it that you did 
That bounds me to you 
And you to me
Neither do I know
Nor do you care

What purpose do you have 
That you so frequently visit me
In my dreams 
Letting me hold your hand
And holding mine back 
Why do you give me so much joy in my sleep
Only to strip me away from it when I wake

Why do I write these fucking letters
Why do I still fucking care
Why do I still stare 
At my fucking screen

Well fuck it 
There's nothing I can do about it 
You will not turn around to look
No matter how much I write or scream 
From the looks of it
You will forever be a recurring dream