I just laughed for the past few minutes
And now I'm back to where I started 
The smile has been yet again
Wiped off of my face
And the thoughts I tried to run from
Have caught up to me 
Yet again 
It is an endless cycle
And now it is weighing me down

My entirely has become so heavy now
That my feet seem to be leaving marks 
In even the hardest of floors I walk upon

Ever since I was a kid
I dreamt of flying 
But now, all I do is sink
Forever and even after forever
There are times when I see a light 
For a brief moment 
I swim towards it
With my eyes wide open
For I know that if I were to blink
Even once, the light would disappear

But I am also only human 
I cannot go without blinking 
Even if I don't want to 
It is not upto me you see 

It is not upto me  you see
If I should harbour feelings for you 
Or just empty my heart of them 
It just happens
And it is weighing me down now

I thought I could go on
Ignoring all of these thoughts 
But I can't 
I want to
But I can't 

I don't know what else to write